Beautiful Moment

So it's 7:45am and I am here at work. My day doesn't officially start for another 15 minutes so I thought I would try and write this real quick. I had such a wonderful sweet moment this morning. For anybody who knows anything about me or my Family we are huge and I mean huge holiday people. Especially the major holiday's. Now I have always been excited to share all of our holiday traditions with my kids and have just been waiting for that chance to come. This mornings I was thinking about my sweet little Emma who is scheduled to arrive in just 19 short weeks. (CRAZY!!!) Now I know that she will be little this year so Holidays won't mean much to her but in the years to come....... When you have been through all that we have you tend not to imagine to far into the future for fear of the unknown but I found myself totally vulnerable this morning to all of my hopes and dreams for my little family in the many years to come. Seeing my baby girl come down the same stairs her Daddy did as a kid on Christmas morning in her little Christmas jammies sucking her thumb still half asleep waiting for Grampy to make breakfast and turn on all the lights and Christmas music. Or on Thanksgiving Day sitting on Daddy's lap while we say grace over the food God as has so blessed us with. Or walking around on Easter morning following the Jelly bean trail to her Easter basket. And the many nights I will sit up with her when she is sick or scared rocking her to sleep. Reading and singing to her while she looks up at me and pats my face. These moments ones that I haven't even experience yet are my HOPE. They are my life line to endure whatever life may throw at me because those moments are the times that I live and breathe for. They make everything worth fighting for. These BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS. I will get my chance.

Half Way There......

So tomorrow I will be 21 weeks. Wow already!!! I have made it half way through. It has gone so fast and I am loving every minute of it. It's been so fantastic. I am feeling Emma move more and more these days. The first time I felt her I was 16 weeks but it was very few and far between until the last couple weeks. She is a wiggly one. I love it. It's my way of knowing she's ok in there. I go back on the 21st for another ultra-sound and I am excited I always love getting to look at her. Plus is so amazing to see how fast she is growing. I will try and post a picture from the next visit. 134 days (give or take a few) and my sweet Emma will be here with us.